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14 July 2006 @ 08:36 pm
21 February 2006 @ 06:41 pm
Today sucked. Today sucked SO BAD that I hate my life and want to die. Still.

The morning was alright, but come the afternoon classes it all went down the shitter...

Alyssa and I had G&T today and we told Mr. Caldwell, but then he got all mad at us and yelled at us over not being in his classroom. He didn't even tell us that we had to be in his classroom when we had G&T. For the last how many months all we had to do was go to it and inform the teachers we had it.

But no. Not with ickle Caldy.

Instead he got us up to his room, then yelled at us in front of the entire class. He actually made us cry. I NEVER cry. I cry if I get really angry, maybe, and I cry when Ed turns jackassy and I just can't take it any more.

I never cry when I get my feelings hurt or if I get yelled at. But somehow little Caldwell managed to break down my act and make me cry.

Or maybe it's just the fact I was already stressed out over the fact that my mom might have cancer. (She most likely doesn't but I didn't know that then.)

So Alyssa and I go down and get our late slips. Then we go back upstairs and we have to walk in front of the entire class to hand them to him. So the entire class saw us cry.

Although we had our own little mini-aliance against him (It was me, Melissa, Alyssa, and Shelby. Until Shelby had to go back upstairs because the vice-principal noticed she was skipping.) we still ended up missing all our social classes except for the one in the morning.

He did apologise to us, but I don't know what is up with adults. An apology doesn't take away the fact that he hurt our feelings and humiliated us in front of the class, he got mad at us when HE was in the wrong. He admitted he was, but that still doesn't make it better.

I hate Mr. Caldwell.

And I don't care if he knows. 'Cause I KNOW his friends read this journal. He told me. HE KNOWS IF I WRITE ABOUT HIM! And you can just tell him that I. HATE. HIM. May he be hit by a flying goose and get web-footed to death.

On another jolly note, Landin also told Chris, who told all my friends, about my mom's condition.

You have no idea how much of a joy that was. Now I get to go to school tomorow and get called an attention whore. Not only that, Steph got mad at me because I got mad at Chris. I apologised to Chris, but she was to busy being angry at me and ignoring me to notice. The last words she said to me before storming past me in a huff were "WHAT THE FUCK?!".

Although I don't care any more. Maybe it's just my bad mood, but I don't care about HER anymore.


No, I don't mean that. I'm just saying that because I am insanely hurt that she doesn't even listen to me.


On a plus side I'm wearing my Care Bear pajama bottoms to school tomorow.
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: Panic! At The Disco- Build God, Then We'll Talk
05 February 2006 @ 05:42 pm
Stolen from Kaku-chan, this was fun. For a while.

[x] Ever been in a play?
[ ] More than 10 Broadway shows?
[x] Have you ever been/Are you in school shows?
[ ] Does your current job involve theater in some way?
[ ] Want to end up working in/for theater
[ ]Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?
[x] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever!!
Total [3]

[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[ ] Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[ ] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[ ] Do you like to get dirty in mud?
[ ] Do you like country music?
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your backyard?
[ ] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[ ] Do you live on more then 1 acre?
[ ] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?

[x] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[x] Is most of your clothing dark?
[x] Do you think about death? (But only sometimes. :D)
[x] Do you want to die? (Dido to above!)
[x] Are you a social outcast?
[x] Are you pale? (But all Canadians are pale in the winter.)
[x] Do you like Hot Topic? (Meika, don't hurt me.)
[x] Do you enjoy Tim Burton movies?
[x] Are you mean sometimes? (Only sometimes?)
Total [9]

[x] Can you skateboard? (But I can't do tricks...)
[ ] Do you wear Vans/Emerica/Etnies/any skate shoe?
[x] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[ ] Do you watch the x-games?
[ ] Do you have any piercing's?
[ ] Do you wear a mohawk? (I wish...)
[x] Do you wear Band T-shirts?
[x] Have you called someone a poser recently? (But only because he called himself punk and crap, yet didn't even know who the Dead Kennedy's are/were! I mean, he listened to KANYE WEST! KANYE WEST! ... And he was an asshole who didn't even listen to punk music...)
Total [4]

[x] Do you say the word "like"? (I really wish I didn't, though...)
[ ] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie & Fitch
[ ] Do you pop the collar? (What's that mean?)
[ ] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?
[ ] Is the only nerd u like Seth Cohen?
[ ] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?
[x] Do you like pop music? (Well, I dunno, actually. I don't know what defines 'pop music'. I like dance music from the 90's... Is that pop? *is stupid*)
[1/2]do you have a little dog? (I HAD a little dog. But she was fat. Bless Jill's little dead heart. <3)
Total [2 1/2]

[ ] Is your hair long?
[ ] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
[x] Do You want to save the animals?
[x] Do you think war is unnecessary?
[x] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[ ] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[x] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
Total [4]

[x] Do you act ghetto? (BUT in a joking way... Yo' unastand me, ma bro'tha?)
[ ] Do you wear do-rags?
[x] Do you like hip-hop? (But only some songs. Like that one. By that guy. With the funny hair...)
[ ] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world? (Isn't that the guy that got shot? ... Well, I guess not, then, if he was so bad that someone killed him.)
[ ] Do you believe he's alive? (He's dead. And even if he is alive, then who really cares?)
[x] Do you like afro's? (How can you NOT?!)
[x] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"? (... Fo Shizzle.)
[x] Do you like to dance? (Not meaning I can. I just like to.)
[ ] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit? (Baby Phat? Noooo... But Shelby calls me Sarah G-unit sometimes. Does that count?)
Total [5]

[ ] Do you cry often?
[x] Do you wear hoodies? (I did until I lost them or they got to small.)
[ ] Do you like soft music?
[x] do people not understand you? (NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME! If they did life wouldn't be any fun. BUT if you mean it in a bad way, then, eh... Uh... I dunno.)
[x]Do you write your own poems? (No. All the stuff on DA has been written by my evil twin Gary. *rolls eyes*)
[x] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?(OOH! OOH! I DIED IT ROSEWOOD! THAT'S A RED! Sorta.)
[1/2] Do you cut your own hair? (I only trim it if it gets to long in one spot. That and my bangs.)
[ ] Are you lonely?
[x] is Hawthorne Heights a good band? (YES!)
Total [5 1/2]

[ ] Do you surf?
[ ] Do you wear flip flops year-round? (In CANADA?! We can hardly wear them in the summer because of the damn mosquitos!)
[ ] Is your hair shaggy?
[ ] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?
[ ] Do you own Many pairs of shorts?
[ ] Do you like smell of salt water?
[x] Do you want to be at the beach right now? (But that's because it is cold and the beach would be warm. Unless it was the beach here. Then it would be cold.)
[ ] Do you hate tourists?
Total [1]

[x] Do you wear glasses?
[ ] Do you use an inhaler?
[x] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? (But that depeneds. I stick it into pockets in my shirt jackets, or in my hoodie's...)
[ ] Does your mom pick out your clothes? (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!)
[x] Are you on the computer often? (When it's not broken.)
[x] Do you ever get picked on? (Not often, though.)
[x]Do you look forward to goin to school? (I get to see my friends then. And also I have awesome teachers who I can actually TALK TO!)
[ ]Are you shy around the opposite sex?
[x]Do you play video games?
Total [6]

[ ] Do you own alot of nike, addidas, or underarmor?
[x]Do you love the smell of fresh cut grass? (But how does that make someone jock-ish?)
[x] Are you constantly worrying about being inshape? (But that is because I am insecure.)
[ ] Do you let people know its game day by yelling it through the halls? (We don't HAVE a game day OR a sports team. People only do that if it's a free gym in P.E.)
[ ] Do you play 2 or more sports?
[ ] You know alot of people just from playing a team sport?
[ ] You love grass stains, mud, and hurting people
[ ] A whistle blowing pumps ur addrenalin (I strongly dislike whistles. Bad memories. *shudders*)
[x] Are you very school spirited? (But only because all the other schools suck.
Total [3]
23 January 2006 @ 10:21 am
My computer died. Again. Right after I said I would be on the next day, it died.

How sad is that?

SO, anyways, I am accesing LJ from a computer at school, and am here to tell you I can continue the rp over the school computers using LJ, but not MSN or AIM or anything since they blocked it...

SO, if you want to, post and I'll make a new entry for us.
Current Mood: lonelylonely
Current Music: None D:
20 December 2005 @ 11:12 pm
I like cows. They make me happy and go "Moo".


I really need a hobby...


Today in drama we did our commercial, and I must say, my groups kicked major ass. Only in drama do I get to look like a tart while selling a pair of vibrating pajamas while using sexual inuendo.




I love drama class. <3 ANYWAYS! On Thursday, Mr. Caldwell's letting me bring in The Grince (The original, not the crappy Jim Carry or however you spell his name one!) SO YES, Abby and I are really quite pleased with this. Since everyone else has terrible taste in movies and would prefer to watch the crappy Jim Carry (or however you spell his name) version that basically circles around a love aspect that involves a thirty-year-old womans cleavage.



SO, I get to bring in the tape and I might just let Mr. Caldwell see Emily and her Alf... Maybe... *grins* My sister was so cute when she was a kid. To bad I wasn't alive then so I wasn't able to point and laugh at her.


Heehee. Baby stew.


<_< ... Yeah... WELL, I know I make a convincing hooker now, so... That's all there is to say. o_O How Mr. Caldwell knows what a real hooker acts and looks like is beyond me, but oh well.
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
07 December 2005 @ 05:14 pm
I mean, SERIOUSLY! I have NEVER had such a great day!

I mean, I'm caught up in all my school work (almost), and I got to do a bunch of useless crap for a while and...

See, this is the REALLY good part...

For me, at least.

It makes me feel all happy and smiley...

Sean actually asked me out, so now I'm happy. 'Cause I like him. I actually, GENUINELY like him...

And it was something I actually worked at.

I mean, I was trying to get him to like my friend when we first met, but holy freaking fuck, I couldn't be happier. 'Cause I started liking him, only it was bad 'cause I was trying to get him to like my friend, but then she stopped liking him and then I was able to try and persuade him to like me. Only I didn't try and persuade him, I actually was just myself and annoyed the fuck out of him, but hey, I don't know how him somehow managing to like me works, but oh well I am really, really, really, really happy so HA!

*deep breath*

ANd he's really, really, really cute and sweet and funny and shy and adorable and has cool snaggle-teeth and he's huggable and huggable is important, so this is great and he has soft hair *deep breath* and pretty eyes and his eyes turn grey sometimes, only that's when he gets pissed off, but oh well I don't usually piss him off unless I'm purposely trying to piss him off, and otherwise I can and OMG this is one long fucking sentence and I am really blabbering on about him and all but that's okay 'cause if people are reading this in their heads then they know where to put pauses and take breaths and such so hah!


Did I mention I really like him?
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
06 December 2005 @ 06:11 pm
I woke up today with the feeling it was going to be a bad day. I didn't want to get out of bed, go to school, or participate in anything.

Did any body else wake up with that feeling?

WELL, anyways, the day proved to be just that. I got made fun of, beaten on, and genuinely sad to the point of leaving improv early because I felt like I was going to cry.


But I still love life. Even if it sucks some royal ass sometimes.


Actually, life just sucks. Now go shoot some squirrels, fuckers.
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
18 November 2005 @ 08:25 pm


Seriously. It's uncanny.

Unless you don't know about the stuff I do when I have out with my friends.
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Seriously. It's uncanny.

Unless you don't know about the stuff I do when I have out with my friends. <_< >_>



Mr. Caldwell went to Pitsburgh or something, and Ms. Mabee went to Montreal or something, and Mr. Guillou, well, I don't know WHERE he is, but that's beyond the point that TODAY WAS CRAP-TACULARLY FUN! :D

Seriously! IT WAS GREAT! I had Computers first thing, then Art, then L.A., and then Drama. The only thing that sucked was that we had to run a circut in gym, and then play four-corner soccer. Which is THE lamest game EVER CREATED! I mean, GOD! It's hard enough to score on one net, and block one ball! WHO WANTS FOUR NETS TO SCORE ON AND FOUR BALLS COMING AT YOU SO FAST YOU HAVE TO DUCK OR ELSE AQUIRE BRAIN DAMAGE?


God, I bet Ms. Tonellier does that just because she hates us.


Bitch. >_<

ANYWAYS! I finished all my work in class (Except for my Science revue but that's a secret so shhh.) so I have ALL WEEKEND to sit around at rehearsel for the musical.

OH, how much fun I shall have... Missing my precious weekend to look like some cheesy waiter. ... GOD, I wish I wasn't in this damn thing! I mean, ARG! It was fun for a while, but now all the teachers are doing is yelling at us, just because they expect us to get a dance and song down in one rehearsel. >_< They made Abby CRY! ABBY DOES NOT CRY! She's one of the strongest people I've ever met, and THEY MADE HER CRY! ... ARG!

I got on the honour roll in school. o_O I mean, WTF?! That's beyond unnatural.


Mr. Caldwell lied about me on my report card. I have come to the conclusion he only writes normal 'good' stuff about me because I am Meika's sister. He really shouldn't LIE like that. It's BAD and CONFUSES me. Since I am one of the worst workers in class (I don't get amused THAT easily...) and also one of the most annoying people a teacher will ever face, SERIOUSLY! WTF? I ANNOY HIM MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE! HOW can he write that? HOW? HOW?!


Okay, random outburst of confusion about my *slightly* dishonest teacher over.

ANYWAYS! Update over. Good bye. And remember that if you're going to kill yourself, always change your socks. You can't go to Hell or get reincarnated as a fruit fly or whatever without socks. <3
Current Mood: apatheticapathetic
17 November 2005 @ 07:45 pm
You know what? I WANT A JOB! Not because I'll get money so that I can OMGSHOPPINGSPREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111<33333333333 ... I want one because I want EXPERIENCE. Just to make that clear.

I seriously hate getting an allowance. I mean, it's great and all, but I feel so guilty. It feels as if I'm mooching off of my mom. It would give me work experience, I'd get paid, and I'd meet new people.

That's not so bad, is it?

I'm a hard worker when I want to be one, and a slacker when I want to be one. A.K.A. I am a regular teenager.

Regular teenagers have JOBS.


Most of the time.

SO, here's my plan. I'm going to make a resume (Can I even spell that word correctly?) and apply at McDonalds, Burger King, and DQ. If I don't get any jobs there, I'll go and...

Well, I haven't gotten much farther than that. Hopefully I can get a job. It'd be great to see what it's like. Even if it is just at a fast food restaurant.


I'ma go now.
Current Mood: confusedconfused
08 November 2005 @ 11:43 pm
I'm am FREE! I AM A FREE WOMAN! I AM FREEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111one111one1one

Yes. Guess who broke up with her boyfriend who was being a complete and total arse-hole to her friiiieeennndddsssss?

Sarah broke up with her boyfriend who was being a complete and total arse-hole to her friiiieeennndddsssss!


And has a new Secret-Agent-Lover-Man! Although HE doesn't know it. *shifty eyes* A.K.A. Sarah actually has a CRUSH! Without the dude LIKING HER BACK!

It's like... Whao...


ANYWAYS! Ed was being a jackass again today, but other than that, I had a pretty good day. Sean and I were goofing off during Enrichment for a while 'cause we kept finding buildings that were from 2005 that have been declared historic, and we got kinda sick of it, so we started to joke around and stuff... BUT we did do our work! So LOVE ME! You know you waaaaaant it! ... Yeah. o__O;;

I had issues. I really shouldn't even BE in the Gifted and Talented Program. I just get okay grades. That is all.




ANY WAYS! That's my ranting for a while. I just finished two essays in one day. <3
Current Mood: lovedloved